Defeating thoughts flood my mind again,
Am not happy with someone who is not self-respecting and not respecting me,
Meanwhile horrible nightmare occupied my night.

To make myself feel good and positive again,
I make myself to appreciate everything around me.

And thus I have this discovery that I am very lucky and my world is still very beautiful;

I am a citizen of Hong Kong, enjoying the granted right and freedom in a region of China;
I was an AIESECer and now an AIESEC alumna, enjoying the fruits offered by AIESEC experience
I am called Lam Yuen Shan (esp in Chinese) becoz my mum said it makes me special
I love my dad
I can enjoy air-con when I cannot tolerate the heat
I can love someone and be loved
I can eat nice food and drink clean water
I've got a job
I can serve
I can see, hear, speak, smell and touch things
I know how to use computer and I've got a laptop
I have my own room
I am a graduate of a university that it is the best and most famous social work education institute in HK
I have two very good mentors
I have mentees
I still manage to survive in 'okay condition' with one kidney

Most importantly I have hope and a bright future and I am striving for it

Thanks God!

很久的當年 媽媽天天囑告 好心交給人
總可得到好報 過去按這教導埋頭做
可惜隨年長一步 傷口隨年多一道

伸出手攙扶 遭鬆開手警告
交出心戀愛 反得傷心的控訴
嫌棄我過份熱情流露 或是仁慈得恐怖 燙手愛意怕碰到
彷彿背上十字架捨我救贖未算好 越奉獻得到結局越殘酷
教我為免傷勢再會變更糟 圍牆變更高
圍住了自己的去路 防護罩終變成墳墓
將根本的我葬下去獨自老

伸出手攙扶 遭鬆開手警告
交出心戀愛 反得傷心的控訴
嫌棄我過份熱情流露 或是仁慈得恐怖 燙手愛意怕碰到
彷彿背上十字架捨我救贖未算好 越奉獻得到結局越殘酷
教我為免傷勢再會變更糟 圍牆變更高
圍住了自己的去路 防護罩終變成墳墓
將真的我埋藏下去 哀悼裡獨個漸漸老

多想光陰退後到舊時 童年重渡 多斬釘截鐵共處態度
我對你好所以你會對我好 心裡沒旁騖
無奈這幸福的國度 已飽經災劫無寸草
今天只得我野地裡在獨舞

要怎麼的上路 期望一天我能知道